the scariest thing.........

i just read about an actress, a young actress, who plays in the tv series, " 24"  her name is katey, i believe. she had thyroid cancer last year and said that it was the scariest thing that had ever happened to her. and that she took nine months off to recover after her surgery( she did not mention lymph nodes- i guess it was confined to her thyroid) lucky girl. she also said that she was still in therapy to deal with all that had happened to her.

i hope to get to take off several weeks- i do not think that it will be nine months. i think that therapy may be a good idea. this is also the SCARIEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME,TOO!! the only thing worse for me, would be if something were to happen to one of my children.i think that i may look into counseling. i have never been bitter about this, but sometimes i feel like it is happening to someone else. it just does not seem real at times- perhaps it is just too much to handle. also, i feel like every ache or pain that i have somewhere else may be the cancer spreading. i will have to wait until the full body scan to find that out for sure, and knowing me, i will probably wonder about the accuracy of the test.

this of course takes me back to living in the moment and appreciating every day. i will certainly be glad when my surgery is over.......5 days and counting.